Preeto Ma'am and everyone else... i need your help and advice on this...
I KNOW THAT THIS IS WAY TOO LONG BUT DO READ IT AND HELP ME OUT...
OK...So i am a 19 year old boy...and i have this friend(female) of mine.. We are like the bestest of friends for over 3 years now.. we have been together through each other's happy and sad moments,always. She's always been a huge support for me....and me a huge support for her. and we are extremely close to each other.. This girl has shared secrets with me that she wouldn't have with anyone else.. And for me, no one in this world is closer to me than her..
There was a time when both of us were considered to be 'going out' with each other, by everyone...including our friends and family... But we both were convinced that there wasn't any such thing b/w us.. Were were only the bestest of pals..
Neither of us has ever been in a relationship with anyone..!!
Now, for further studies this girl had to move to another town, but her family stays here.
Even then we are always in touch..either on the phone...or through the internet..
we still share each and everything of our lives.. and she comes back to her family every three months...for about a week or so, which needless to say, we spend together..
The problem is here..
During the time she was away from me, i missed her...like hell.. This is nothing unusual... But during this time, i realized how much she means to me..how much i need her in my life with me...
I realized that i had fallen in love with her...and needed her desperately!
Never before had i observed how beautiful she looked, or how perfect i am with her,or how important she is to me,or how my life is meaningless without her in it.
Maybe her being away from me made me realize this fact.. And then i decided to confess my feelings to her..
But here comes the twist..
A couple of days before i was to tell her that i loved her,,she told me that she liked a guy in her class, and was soon going to ask him out. She and that guy were pretty good friends too.. That day she was very happy..
I told you that we shared everything..and i had never seen her feel for a guy the way she was doing now..!
he asked the guy out.. He first denied..but then eventually started going out with her..
Now my problem is that i still love her to the core.. I could die for her.
I tried to get her out of my mind...but all in vain..
I haven't told about this to anyone... and i am dieing inside..
I simply cannot live without this girl...shes my life now... I love her to death..!!!
I am afraid of telling her my feelings as i fear that she might not just turn it down but also stop toking to me forever... I have no idea what she feels about me.. I am pretty sure she considers me nothing more than a friend...
She is happy with that guy.. I dont wanna ruin it for her.. But at the same time i cant contain my feelings for her...
WHAT SHOULD I DO ??
i am completely messed up right now... i haven't stopped crying for 3 days..
PLEASE help me out guys...!!!