I grew up in an orthodox-traditional lower middle class family. I was the eldest son and was taught not to be distracted by 'the other things in life' and was 'strictly asked' to purely concentrate on my studies and career. I was promised the 'earthly pleasures' will happen when it is supposed to happen. I did fairly well, worked hard, earned a living for my people and kept them happy. Time passes quickly and now I'm almost 30.
Problem started when the girl I was supposed to get engaged last year was put to end when my cousin showed a mobile camera capture (video) of her doing it with my cousin and another guy together. I called of the proposal without citing the actual reason to any of the parties.
Now all I do is waste my time searching for filth in internet and breaking my head over it. I feel left out 'cause I think every human being under the sun is doing it. I tried to overcome it by making myself jump into it. But every-time my mind disagrees with me. I have trust issues with women right now. I feel my people have cheated me on my childhood and adulthood.
What am I supposed to do to overcome this?