Sorry guys i am ashamed of myself with this act .... but yes i was going to suicide yesterday ..!!!
i am male 21 staying in saudi arabia since 2 months away from my gf to make my career asap for her ... being away from her is very difficult for ... we fight alot but in the end everything is fine between us ... she is very understanding and always helps me ...
problem was staying here is very difficult ... life is very difficult over here .. i am from mumbai and yea after staying in mumbai its very difficult to b here ... but yes i am doing it for our future ... ..problem is since i am here staying with my , my dad was not being nice to me ... i used to b constantly on phone to chat with here every time 1 get to ... so my dad used to yell at me ... twice he said dont waste my money stop studying and find a job .... it hurt me alot but i knw he is telling me for my good becz i use my phone alot ... i love my gf alot and thats y i want to b in touch with her every minute i get ....
3 days back had a fight with my brother .... 2 days back argument with dad and then yesterday with my gf ... my gf likes to flirt at start i said i dnt hav problm but then i thot she stopped .... yesterday she uploaded some piks and his friend commented hawt !! to which she replied thanku with a kiss... i was pissed off with that ...she used to tell me that dnt comment kisses n all on facebook her relatives will se and then she did this ... was i right to shout on her ?? also becz of her bad network it added to the fight becz she was not replyoing to my msgs but was commenting d liking piks... i was really very depressed n sad .. i felt like ending myself ... i called her told her that i am ending myself no 1 likes me .. u wnt b happy with me i am possessive ... i cant hurt u more ... n i told her i am ending myself ..she cried alot but i didnt listen ... i was out of my mind ... being scared she told her mother .. i spoke to her mother crying !! then i called my mom n i told her m ending myself ... she called dad and then i spoke to dad and told her abt problems i had with him ... he was making my stay here difficult and then everything was good ..
now problem is with this behaviour how will a mother give her daughter to me ?? i am very weak by nature and i cry for small things like a kid .... how do i overcome this weakness ??? and now wht do i do ?? i want to marry her ... we love each other alot ... m scared her parents wont allow her to marry a guys like me ... all this happened becz of my depression my weak nature and she knows that but will her parents understand this ?? i am cursing myself y i did all this :'(
i am in depression please help me ....
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