My family is in lack of better words dysfunctional. My sister went off to college and I'm the oldest in the house now. My parents argue a lot and have had really horrid arguments over the years. But they are still together. Physical and verbal violence have been witnessed by all three of my sibling including me. Things have been less tense. But my biggest problem is my father. We have had our fair share of yelling matches, as well. Our relationship has been strained over the years due to my mother and father's relationship. I was once a daddy's girl so it's hard. I know I shouldn't let their issues get in the way of our relationship but it really does. To be honest he lacks understanding and is very hot-blooded. His lack of faith to my mother some years ago angers me for some reason. I feel as if he betrayed not only her but his whole family as well. My other two siblings have no idea about his infidelity I found out from eavesdropping. The heart of my stress now, I left my phone in my dad's truck as I was searching I found an unopened condom. Please don't say I'm overthinking things and I shouldn't get involved because I got involved the moment I was born. Another situation was this summer we kept getting mail for Huggies diapers mailed to my father and on another separate occasion was when I picked up the phone and it was a hospital calling about baby results, bare in mind that my siblings and I all have the same mother and father and we are all over the age of five. That confused me big time. I know I'm going on and on but there is so much unsaid things that I myself am still trying to understand as I write my thoughts rereading it. I don't mean to come off too defensive the truth is I just started high school I'm under a lot of pressure and I don't know how to deal with family issues when I get home. I guess I'm just looking for insight from another person's persons perspective. I'm so tired of bottling all this up.
Sorry for the spelling errors. I hope you respond soon