hi!!! i hope you mates can help me on my big bad emotional issue of mine!
well im a 22 years old student and i started a big bad crush on my last-semester assisstant_proffessor and i think he is intrusted too!!
well im saying this mostly because of his body language and the stares ..i catch him glancing on me sometimes and he always gets loud when im arround ...
but first let me tell you how it began..
i got into the second year and when i first saw him i got this feeling!!! he was special and i dont know !! and then i realized that i liked him a bit too much, and morever i felt for him now...
he is arround 30ths and he is single, i tried to make him my mentor because i thought that i was just looking up to him and that's it, so i asked him to be my mentor he told me he was more than happy to help me, in the earley first semester i would always ask him to help me in private and he would say yes , sometimes he would get so close to me and stays longer that one of my friends thought he kind of liked me , and noticed how nervious he is in my presence..
i tried to make more contact with him by asking him to give me his facebook but he kind of turned of and he said it was too personal and his face was like a red blood tomatoe!!!!!! i wont lie to say that i was the one to blame cause we were sitting infront of a bunch of other assisstant-proffessors in the back, all females and they knew us both, and they were kind of trying sooo hard to mind thier own buisness!!! so he was looking at them while i asked him and up and down untill he ended up giving me his e_mail..
i started to e_mail him and try to make it funny!! but there was little respond from him kind of mostly proffessional responses, and when we would meet he would seem more nervious than usual and when he sees me non_carring he would come up to me and starts discussing what we said in the e_mail message ..until someday i told him nearly how i feel about him in a message: i told him he was special to me and that i adored him to the point that i wanted to come closer to him, and then i ended asking him a favor to break the awkwardness..he didnt ansewer for a couple of days and when he ansewred he told me that he was sorry to late respond because he didnt check his emails for a while...
in the second semester our groupe was no longer included in his class, i was annoyed so bad specially when the new teacher in that module was soooooo out of it!! so i went to him and said why did you leave the groupe and he said that he didnt know that he left ours , that he thought he left another one, i d k but i think he did it on purpes!!! so i asked him i could come to his classes and he said of curse...
i kept attending his classes untill the now, what happened is ones i asked him to bring me some soluce_sheets and he forgot about it twice in a row, i went mad and left him standing, that night i sent him telling him how bad i felt that he forgot me twice , he said he was sorry and that he will come the next day ( when he didnt work) and write 'em for me..but i didnt get the message at time so i missed it, and i felt terrible so i wrote him that im sorry i got it late and apologized ...and i asked him if he fogave me...he never answered!! so i stopped emailing him since...i became more personal contacting exept in the extreme help needy times when i get so cold responds from him...but the strange awkward thing is that nothing changed personally there still the starring and the sparks and recently he became more shy and conver_initiater and noooooo eyeee contacttt!!!!!!!! and more protective and i feel sometimes that he is jalous because there is his colleague who is so flirty with me i try to ignore him but he keeps showing up..
sometimes he stares at me like he has a problem! like he wants to tell me something..this began with a really awkward other sign : he talks too much on the phone recently..when i noticed that i became more distant..ones i was in his class and i got out to talk to someone when i got back he litterlly was terrified!! he blocked my way and he asked me face red rubbing his chin in a very cut sentence why i did go...and he told me to regain my sit that is still waiting for me!!! ( i was like in my mind: am i taken hostage?!!)...that was soo cute!!!
the too much on the phone kind of thing is annoying me + what are the chances that he is just trying to get rid of this thing ! betwin us and try to deal with me as a teen with a crush and how can i change that? i have a feeling telling me that he had a girlfriend or a fiancee and she's trying to light up the flame again, also he never wears a ring. im trying so hard to get over him but im not succeeding, i feel hes doing the same like he forgets me totaly and when he sees me the 0 turns back to 1 !!!
and now the year is almost over and i dont know what to do?
give me an advice PLZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!